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[Sep. 21st, 2007|12:47 pm] |
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i made a tour LJ.
add it.
benontheroad
before i leave, lets get lunch :) |
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[Jul. 3rd, 2007|04:52 pm] |
i just remembered my livejournal password.
welcome back, sukkas |
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[Nov. 1st, 2006|03:06 pm] |
lets make this one as cliche' as possible... k?
my friends are incredible. they put up with an immense amount of crap, and i can only hope to one day be a sliver of what they've been to me.
the band is more fun, every practice. we are finally all on the same page musically, mentally, spiritually, whatever. its working, and that makes me happy.
the drama.. will always be there. no matter what. it can start from something as stupid as a holloween costume, to something straight up like calling someone out on BS. either way, its here now, and it always will be.
ive been trying to get a job for weeks i have 12 applications out right now... even labor finders (the day labor people..) dont have any jobs available. i would do anything to be able to pay bills, or be able to buy my sister a wedding gift.
oh yea, my sister is getting married on sunday.
im a fan of free food and dancing, so it should be good.
-this should make for an interesting story to tell one day. |
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[Oct. 27th, 2006|04:32 pm] |
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how do you delete this thing? |
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[Oct. 26th, 2006|02:18 pm] |
well...
for those who didnt know.. ive been SUPID SICK the past few days...
102.5 fever, throwing up, pooopin, sweating, but freezing, then burning up, unable to talk, throat was swelling up causing problems breathing, drinking fluids, and eating, which lead to dehydration, not to mention dizzyness, and ask anyone i talked to from late sunday till yesterday afternoon, nothing ive said makes any sense. (not that it ever REALLY makes to much sense but..)
so it was pretty rad, id say.
im a lot better now, so its ok.. but it got scary tuesday morning and i woke up in a panic attack because i couldnt breathe...
after a little bit, iw as able to get enough breath to take a shower ( i had been sweting profusely, so im sure i smelled great) and drive myself to the hospital... at around 11.
if you dont have insurance, they dont care about you.
i had a 102.5 fever, and i spent 1 1/2 hours in the waiting room... under "reason for visit" i put "throat swollen shut, cant breathe"
thats worth waiting off... right?
either way, i get in, finally they take my temperature, and flip out.
ask me if i can take tylenol to bring down my fever..
-i cant even swallow my own spit my throat is so swollen-
so awesome, it was put up my butt.
they took 7 vials of blood, a huge cotton swab to the inside of my throat (which felt friggen great, lemme tell ya) and had me on 4 different IV medicines (from pain killers to antibiotics) then started treating me for my dehydration, because i wasnt able to drink water for so long.
i love it.
turns out i had pharyngitis.. meaning, of course, my pharynx was swollen shut. thats your voice box.
so it sounds like this dudes just now going through puberty, i love it.
i take 14 pills a day. from prednisone (which is supposed to make you fat) to Clindamycin (which kelly told me they perscribe for acne)
so chubby, smooth skinned ben is back, and ready for the weekend.
sorta.
oh, that and a perscription for vicodin, but i really dont want that at the fort, people always coming in and out... people we dont know.. i dunno, i just dont think its a great idea...
that and im not really in that much pain.
either way, im done talking about how rad my sickness is.
subject change.
boy likes girl.
a lot
girl likes boy.
a lot.
and theres nothing either of them can do about it.
awesome.
another subject change.
this weekend will be fun as crap..
i really wanna go up to see anberlin/jacks mannaquin/mae/story of the year (yea not really my kind of bands, but i know some dudes)
but nobody wants to go with me..
so ill just stay down here and pass out flyers for saturday..
unless....????
call me.
321 525 0797
and the show saturday will be amazing.
that is all
i just wrote a friggen novel. |
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[Oct. 22nd, 2006|08:17 am] |
life is too good sometimes.
other times.. its just like it has been for me lately.
im not sure i can handle more of this... the worst part is.. i put myself through it, and drag the people i love into it also.
im sorry |
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[Sep. 27th, 2006|02:00 pm] |
ok, last weekend= incredible
everything was in its place, and i had a blast the whole time.
i just got a call from the police station on vero. something about my name, and MSC being spraypainted on a wall..
he wants me to come down and check it out.
i dunno if its good, or bad, but its still weird.
whatever, people are lame.
finally got a lot off of my chest. and i feel much better that atleast some people know most of the truth.
today was hard, while programming my old house number, it was the first time i did it and it was just "mom" not "mom and dad"
i dont want him to be forgotten.
and it just stirred up a lot of crap in my head that setlled to the bottom until now.
so today is the "write songs on an acoustic guitar day"
see you tomorrow.
-ben |
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[Sep. 25th, 2006|01:28 am] |
i dont know how/where to start.
so i wont.
i love it.
-ben |
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[Sep. 19th, 2006|10:06 pm] |
the past week was incredible.
its nice when you get to make up for a crappy first impression, and make friends with someone who thought you were a douche bag
the band is practicing its balls off. and its showing...
everyone should email josh benfield, and tell him to put my band on later...
( booking@littlereggies.com )
hung out with catterson a lot, saw a lot of bands, ate some good food, ate some horrible food.
friday was easily the best, thankyouverymuch
made some money, spent to much money.
snapped my bass in half, broke ryans mirror off, got a flat tire,
is this cloud nine?
im stoked. |
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[Sep. 8th, 2006|12:09 am] |
ever wish you had super powers? not so people would think you were neat, or whatever... just so you could actually make a difference? make the bad guys finally pay.. ya know? \
i feel so helpless sometimes because all i can do for you is hurt. i cant fix problems, i dont give great advise... all i can do is just feel some of your pain for you... i wish for once i could make things better... the people who deserve the world are getting hosed, and the jerks, and liars, and cheaters, have everything..
God is a funny dude, if you think about it. He just sorta watches us flip out about stupid things, worry about things we cant control. try to fix problems that arent ours to begin with.. we try to get money and stuff and "cool" friends because to us, it all equals points and the more points we have, the "better" we are..
i bet he laughs his ass off when he takes a good look at us.
its almost like we treat life like a life boat, theres 6 people trying to get in, and only 5 can stay.. so who gets to stay on? the people with the most points...
think about how many selfishly-motivated things we do... everyday...
selling our time for money, which we trade back for points, only so we dont get booted out of the lifeboat...
im tired of it.
screw however many points i have,
this is me: i drive an old truck, i have 3 dollars, i listen to lame music, i worry.. alot, im scared people wont like me, im scared that if i really look at myself, i wont like me... and the list goes on...
im so tired of people trying to figure out how many points i have.. who gives a crap about who i associate with. we have all put ourselves on a really poorly done version of survivor...
think of how miserable this mindset is... only do something, if it benifits you.
how many people do we know like that? why do we still support them by laughing at their jokes that put down other people, or hang out with clicks of people that your either "in" or "out"
im sick of it. i want people who know me to love me, because they know the real me.
and the people that dont like me, i want them not to like me because they know me, and they dont like it. but only after given the same chance they would give anyone, regardless of how many points i have.
im done.
for now.
-ben! |
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